Numbers For days, Words For life

the poem of redemption

2010-04-03T21:55:00.000-07:00

open my windows to the world
as a cry blasts from my lips
breaking even a pinch of silence
and going through the time

i crawl on all fours
i stand on my feeble feet
i walk step by step
i run through the winds

now i see every face
hear every voice
feel every touch of anger
every sense of failure.

does this carry on much longer?
will i see the light?
what's holding me back?
lOVE,HATE,DEFEAT,FRUSTRATION,ANGER
ILLUSIONS,TEMPTATIONS

im dissolved in the game of love
i am the product of hate
i admit my defeat
im drown in my frustrations
im playing a game of illusions
im trapped in the clutches of temptations

Stand up!
Negativity is my enemy
Confidence is my sword
Success is my prize
Pride is my sheild
time is the mile

blood runs through my veins
now the question remains
What's Next?

Finding myself a way in life.....

2010-03-23T05:31:00.000-07:00

hmm... dh lamer aku tk blog. hmm... okla.. i reali agree to the song by Nas-I can. he's rapper btw.... but hiss ryhmes are wat captivate me. his rhymes are wat make me listen to hip-hop. and im not a fan of hip hop. inspired by the energy of his song, it makes me think.... did i act my age? am i doing the best for the world? wats my purpose in life? tat song pretty much says everything.
tis life is a one time show. u make history of ur own. wat hav i been doing? i asked myself. no doubt i still love Nur "A" which i call her doraemon haha!. but i just keep it low for now. no relationships(BGR) if possible.

Sayang, although we're not together, wif the marvel of technology...
let the airwaves send my love to you. :)

love doraemon. :)

When the clock in ur mind turns back to time

2010-03-15T04:59:00.000-07:00

u noe, there is a point ot time in life when u wished u cud rewind that particular moment just like u wanted it to be. just the same feeling all over again. itz crazy.. i noe... hmm

From the ashes, will we see the wings??

2010-03-09T03:12:00.000-08:00

starting to reali fight that feeling of lost and defeat. i may lost in love but i didnt loose my love for her. i was plauged by anger, lost, confusion and stupidity. but from the ashes, will we see the wings? will i rise up against this inner opponent inside me? or let it bring me down even lower.
she stirred up the El-nino in me. but ryte now, im livin in a world without her. (a song by The Rasmus, check it out guys) tat is wat im listening to ryte now.

till the sunrise

2010-03-06T21:49:00.000-08:00

Yesterday, whole afternoon at home surf net tk abes2.. but when at night.... whoa... me and my frenz go all out to watch Man United vs Wolves. at mac. b4 tat kiter ingt nk gi tgok arsenal nyer match but the tv wont show Supersports dammit. had to wait till 1 plus to watch next match..
slacked at macdonalds tmart. ate cheeseburger. den the match starts. Doraemon called me in between. and said she's not feeling well. dear, pls go to the doctor when u still feeel sick k? hehe! love u. hmm.. ape lagi.. after match, slacked at a place.. very nice. but my eyes like begging me to go home.. kesian..... hehe! aku tros nk chau... salam everybody then reach the bed at ard 5 45am
haha! tros down sia..

dh tu jek

hav fun kids! :)

when things go Bla bla bla... i go la la la....

2010-03-05T01:53:00.000-08:00

hey... hmm... Doraemon looks quite moody todae. hmm... i dunno why. but im trying to find out.
hmm... i dun want her to be sad. hmm... mayb she needs time alone 4 awhile. nvm.
aniwaes.. didnt do anything todae... my goodness!! im so bored todae... haiyo. i wanna jog one round around bedok reservoir.. sori ppl, didnt go down to play at dome. i'll meet u guys when i finnish my routine. aku nk kurus beb... aku nk terbang... AKU NK UBAH DIRI AKU!!! ni jap lagi aku nk gi jog..

TO HELL WIF THE PAST..... coz i noe itz bringing me down.... IM CRAWLING UP from where i fall. I've made my choice to HEED THE CALL, and a FIST TO LIFE INFRONT OF ME, to whoever telling me of wat i cant BE!

GET IT?

tis is just short ryhme tat i write.. mayb itz stupid for some of u guys... but 4 me... WHO CARES!!

Posioned by boredom

2010-03-04T07:44:00.001-08:00

as the name suggest.... i am bored. so fucking annoying....
guess tats all folks!!!

haha!

Hey Hush hush...

2010-03-02T03:38:00.000-08:00

Hey... tis post is just 4 u... who i still contact no matter how.
hope u noe, that im refering to u. i still love u even when we're not together. u see... there is a day we laugh.. there is a day we cry. i noe the crying part is not good. the thing is, life is a weather. nothing good and bad could last as long.... but alwaes noe tat i'll be by side to hear ur cries and support u. im so happy tat i made u laugh.. played thumb wrestling... listening to music... scrapping the table using ur name tag as a scrapper. u noe... the wax stuff on the table. hahax! itz fun. taking pictures wif u... yup tats one of my fav highlights of the dae guys. hmm... cant upload our pictures. she wont let me. she'll kill me. haha! well gotta go.

ps: i'll be there whenever u nid me my dear. Hush hush.. wipe those tears, and let ur smile shine as bright as the morning sun. :))

have fun kids!

KEHIDUPAN...

2010-03-01T04:01:00.000-08:00

Ku mula dengan laungnya azan di telingaku.
ku buka mataku melihat ape yg disekeliling
tidak ku tahu apa yang berlaku
tidak ku mengerti apa yang ada disini

langkah hidupku bermula.
bila mata terbuka dan mampu melihat.
bermula lah aku berjalan.
diberikan arah, diberikan tujuan.

aku hanyalah seorang watak dalam theater dunia
yang penuh dengan kesilapan.
tidak ingin ku mengulanginya
namun itu hanyalah yang ku harapkan

cahaya yang memancar menyinari hidup
tidak akan terus berada di satu sudut.
apa kan daya ini lah kehidupan.
yang juga merupakan suatu perjalanan.

tidak akan ku tumbang dengan gelombang dunia
melainkan saat dicabut nyawa.
ku tinggalkan harta ku pinggirkan cinta
hanya amalan dunia yang aku bawa.

tis is just peom tat i wrote... itz about how i view my life through tis very lense ryte now

Im gonna hit the bullseye!!

2010-02-28T19:51:00.000-08:00

enough... enough about all those distractions and the things that hold me back!
life is staring me straighit thru my eyes saying "Bring it on LOSER!!" i'll say "come on!!"
i hav a target and IM GONNA HIT THE BULLSEYE!! but why everytime i want pursue.. sumting is holding me back? itz just a Phase. a phase tat we all noe about. if im gonna love a girl out there.. just any girl.. im gonna make sure tat i love myself too... coz then we noe how to symphatize ourselves. and not to bring ourselves down further. Yeah tats ryte lovers!! love urself... sumtimes tat is wad makes u strong. like wad my fren sae.. "u dun giv 100% in love coz when love leaves u... u'll left wif nothing" it is wad i learnt from my peers. tats the good thing. thax bro. hmm.. currentli browsing thru Temasek Poly website for courses available... wah sedap2 sia name course... games and entertainment technology, informations technology woohh... itz like looking at hot gals man... onli itz better.. hahax! tats all 4 todae.

ps:remember.. love sumone.. but also love urself more.

hav fun kids!! haha

Hope u read tis.. now u've found me

2010-02-28T02:50:00.000-08:00

since u noe tat i own a blog.... i dunno from who... it doesnt matter. the thing is.. im just expressing my anger. mcm kau ckp.. org kalau marah.. tkkn fikir ape dier cakap.. kau ingt balek perkataan kau tu. amaciam? sakit kn rase dier?? kalau kau nk tau.. mcm gini la aku berkasar... mcm gini la baru kau bole btol2 rase marah. mcm gini la aku rase. aku tau.. kau tkkn heran ape aku rase. tpi kau ingt la. bukan aku berdendam. kalau kau bole marah, aku pon bole marah. kite same2 manusia. aku tk maki kau depan2.. aku tk sebut pon name kau biler aku tulis kt blog. bukan niat aku nk pinggirkan kau.... tpi kau putus kan r'ship ni. besar sngt ke silap aku. aku tk bole lupa kn kau. aku nk buat diri aku kuat.. supaya lupa kan kau... tpi mcm ape yg aku ckp. im not an egoistic person. ape yg aku tulis kt blog mmg kasar. aku mengaku. dan aku mintak maaf sekali lagi. tpi itu la rase kebencian dan kemarahan yg aku pendam. waktu yg kau beri kan aku terlalu suntuk. aku rase bersalah.. aku nk berubah.. tiba2 kau bgi aku harapan palsu. kau putus kan hubungan tanpa aku ketahui. sampai skrg kalau kau ingt aku dh lupa kan psl tu sume..
mmg ternyate aku belom... lgi marah biler aku tau kau pilih dier. mcm2 alasan kau bgi aku. tpi ape guna nyer... kau dh dgn dier. mcm ni saje aku nk luah kan rase marah aku. aku tk perlu bukti kan ape2 kt kau. sbb aku tau kau akan menang. sejak mlm terakhir yg aku jumpe kau tu. aku mula ingin berubah. Ulang tahun aku.. tu la satu2 nyer harapan aku. tpi.. tk perlu aku ckp lagi. kau dh berubah hati. ape lepas ni.. ape yg kau nk ckp... ckp jek. aku tkkn ganggu hidup kau lagi. tis is the last time u'll ever heard from me. and i noe itz reali not a big deal. itz good 4 u to noe... hope u read it. (for the last time tat is)

Round of applause for the betrayer...

2010-02-27T01:09:00.000-08:00

yesterday, i've got the news... now she's becoming a betrayer... tis time... to her best fren...
hmm.... wat a perfect situation we're in. tis is like a drama.. a theatrical act. First we've seen her left her guy for another person(bad enough). now she's ending her frenship. i really wished she cud read tis. but hey... i dun she deserves the link to my blog.
kau ingt kau dh adr org baru, kau bole busted kwn baek kau je mcm tu!?
kau ingt la eh, bilaer kau sakit, sape yg dtg umah kau?visit kau? make sure kau mkn ubat!! ?
you hav just lost my respect. congrats i hate u! it seems tat u dun even care about us.
ape punyer kwn kau ni?? aku dh tk heran lagi la ngn kau.... pegi MAMPOS sudah!

btw, im angry on behalf of her bestfren.
but i'll keep the names to myself.

This Gotta Stop

2010-02-23T05:39:00.000-08:00

my head is like a storm right now... dragging my fingers to do the typing.
well didnt do anything much todae... just a random post again. hmm... but there is one thing, fafa msged me... at skool... thanx baby! i think i needed tat. and not to forget a fren of mine torn his trousers while dancing like a Pussycat Doll member. naseb baek aku adr sluar extra dok. kalau tk... haiz ape nk jadi ngn kau ni. haha! probably the most interesting incident of the dae. hahahaahaha! den at 7 plus went to pay my sisters starhub bills. the queue was unbelievable man.... aku mendak ah kt situ. den went home.... too bad. no time to lepak. tpi lepas ni gua nk jog jugak.. amaciam? aku nk lawan ni sumer ah... tkmo stress2.. fikir2 ttg ORG YG SAKIT KN HATI KITE.. btol tk? sori ar beb tkde bende gerek2 ah niari.

take care sumua

wahahaha!

A ceasefire

2010-02-22T10:26:00.000-08:00

first of all, u might be wondering... why suddenly mr faris here wants to own a blog? hmm i just opened it. after like about 5 years, finally im starting my blog. which means itz the end between me and N. Dun get me started wif the story coz ive end it. But basically what im feeling is tat im totally lost. the shitty feeling tat we all teenagers get falling out of love. But we're frenz now. anyway. im faris// col me riz for short. 18 tis year. bole amek lesen beb!